Long time no talk macha

First and foremost, you need to know that I am under pressure. Yes, air pressure. You got it right --' No, actually you're not. I am under pressure of these bullshitties trial papers. I am now like 49.9% ready. Not even half ready. I decided not to study today because I accidentally looked at the jadual trial and now I realized that all nine subjects is not gonna be taken on the same day! I bet you knew about it. Saya telah mindset kan diri saya bahawasanya nanti saya dah takda masa nak belajar during trial. That is why I am under pressure. Sekarang ni saya dah sedar Alhamdulillah, tu lah yang sempat jari ni menari nari taip essay dalam blog.

Secondly, I need to go right now.

LOL bye kau-orang

Oh lupa

Selamat Hari Raya

Maaf Zahir & Batin

xx

minda separuh sedar

mata berat
telinga bengkak
minda separuh sedar

Hi sahabat sekalian
Aku sihat sihat aja di sini
Cutian kali tak berapa nak well spent

Decided to go shopping alone without any friend
Suka sangat nak hidup sorang sorang ._.

Jadual padat nak belajar pun macam tak jadi je
Hilang semangat kot
sebab
entah...

Kembalikan aku semangat itu
Semangat ingin membuka buku

Rahmatilah ilmu ku
Kerana apa yang aku rasa sekarang ni
Semua yang aku usahakan selama ni
Tidak mendapat rahmat dari mu

Tolong

Masa aku tak banyak
Aku dah berusaha
Jangan sampai aku serah kalah

AHHHHH TIDAKKK

('',)

kurang

hari ni kurang produktif
agak malas nak jalankan otak untuk addmaths kesayangan
takpe esok lusa ada
banyak lagi masa

yeay esok pegi sekolah
jumpa kawan kawan hoyeah
hm boleh mintak tolong diorg join buat video 'dance dare'
hope it works

k chaw
tkda benda nak cakap pun sebenarnya

selamat malam lah
senang cerita

kejap

baru tadi aku baca tweet pasal exam bio which is tomorrow
dead.

harap harap, cikgu, macam biasa kita tunda eh
sbb saya dh memang habit cikgu, tutup buku setiap hari Ahad.

doakanlah.

satu je

satu je benda yang aku suka pasal diri aku ni

-Determination kuat

kalau aku nk benda tu siap, siaplah dia

tak kira apa jadi 

sanggup tak tidur selagi belum siap

Sampai ke subuh pun takpa asal siap

biar ah rasa takut sorang sorang awake asalkan siap

dan bila dah siap

woah perfect *cheers*

tadi determination aku masih kuat

baru paham 99.9 peratus pasal integration

selama ni membodoh je, tiru orang

tapi tadi alhamdulillah dah paham

nak sambung pasal area, volume dan sbgnya

tapi takpalah esok masih ada, mungkin

harap haraplah

dengar cerita homework addmaths mcm shih

takpe rakan rakan, bagi aku belajar slow slow

lepas tu baru cakap shit dgn kau orang ya

sekarang ni biar aku lepak sorang sorang dulu

tenangkan fikiran sbb rasa tak sedap hati ni

haih ada org cari gaduh la

silap besar la cik abang

i dont need you in my  life anyway

so yeah, tak guna kau bilang begitu

iWin

btw atiqah masak ayam sedap & tomyam sedap harini

khas untuk budak yang dah 17thun ni 

terima kasih sayang 

Because you dont get lucky twice

-Mayday Parade

next !

penat lah
nak tidur jap,
sejam dua
sebelum full throttle belajar addmaths

luckily aku gunakan sebaik baiknya cuti ni
everyday aku bukak buku
tahniah

tadi terbang curve jap
dengan mama dan sedara dan adik
beli scarf nice!

pegi popular nak beli novels.
dengan niat dah pasrah kat borders takada looking for alaska
sbb hari tu call, akak tu kata ETA late april
malas nak tunggu
decided beli novel lain
value buy, 2 novels at RM50
Jodi Picoult, interesting author


lalu lalu kat borders jap
haih takda sorg pun yang aku kenal
ehh nasib baik ada khairul
dapat la tengok senyuman mahal dia fuh

sambil sambil tu tengok new arrivals
damn
Looking For Alaska ada 36 copies
duit dah habis
Nanti lah, next cuti Insyaallah

bila la kedai rambut nak bukak
rambut dh panjang ni

bila la kedai jam nak bukak
jam dah barai ni

bye, tidur dahulu

~.~

Hai

Mari mari jangan buang masa

Mari saya ceritakan dari awal pagi saya bangun sampai saya lenguh badan nak tidur

Seawal jam 7 pagi macamtu mak saya dah kejut

Katanya ada mesej dari kawan

Oh Fazirah, dia tak dapat hadirkan diri katanya

Ok saya tak kisah

Ooops Farwi pulak mesej, tak berkesempatan juga katanya

Saya dah alang alang terbangun tu, tengoklah tv sekejap

Lupa tengok cerita apa

Dalam pukul 9.30 baru mandi, iron baju, siap siap

Janji dengan rakan taulan pukul 10 kat Curve hehe

Ok around 10.20 gerak dari rumah

Singgah rumah Yasmin jap

Jadi delivery chocolate pulak aku ni

Seterusnya meneruskan perjalanan

Tiba tiba mesej masuk lagi

Tidak diketahui siapa empunya nombor

Katanya nak ikut sama pergi Curve

Lalu aku mesej nombor itu, menanyakan, Siapakah

"Tasya", katanya

Alangkah meloncatnya aku kegembiraan

Mana kan tidak- sahabat sama2 form 1 itu mahu ketemu bah~

Lantas aku tiba di apa nama tempatnya ini

Oh ya The Curve

Landasan pertama? Pastinya Borders, tempat yg menyalurkan duit kepada ku

Ku ketemu rakan2 sekerja, alangkah rindunya aku pada mereka

.........

Dengan berbekalkan RM350+ yang ada aku lantas berlari lari anak ke semua stor stor pakaian

yang ada, lantas aku ambil baju baju yang ada, aku robek

Ok malas nak ckp dh. Lenguh tangan.

Apa yg boleh aku katakan adalah, well spent.

Yeahman, I've never been so proud with myself until today.

I've made the worst mistake in KL Sentral, 

I bought the wrong shoes. It's cute, but it's not perfect

My parents hate it.

So today I bought something really perfect

Which I think it fell from heaven

A pair of something that will melt every girl's heart

Tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Ily. we're in this together

Wow I'm just so happy can I die.

Biology reference book 11.95

McFlurry Oreo 4.20

T-joue dress 30

F.O.S dress 49

5B paper 26.80

Juvana 12

Body shop perfumes x2 115.40

Tomaz shoes - only 69 dem

unnecessary button x3 10

The Street dress 35

lalalalalalalaalalalalalalalaalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalallalaalalallaalalalallaalalallaalalallalaallaallaalalalalalalallalalaalalalalalalalalalallalalalaalalalallalalalaalalalallaalalalalalalalalalallaallalaallaalalalalalalalaallalallalalalaallala

I'm dead in happiness, so long partner.

Oh good night babes. and dudes.

Buat masa ini

Saya cuma nak cakap bahawa saya okay
Tiada masalah
Okay tipu
Saya ada satu masalah
Tapi masalah tu saya akan postponed kan ke hari yang lain
Sebab mak saya order pizza
Jadi saya nak makan pizza dengan happy
Sebenarnya masalah saya tak cukup besar untuk buat saya sedih pun
Sebab sekarang saya tengah loaded
Nak pergi shopping esok dengan rakan taulan
Rasa bersalah pulak sebab akan tinggal adik kat rumah
Opps pizza dah sampai
Buat masa ni
Saya nak kenyangkan perut dulu
Baru senang hati

131313131131313

Dear 2013

I don't hope you to be nice.

I don't wish you to be gentle.

I just want you to be hard and fine that only I can handle.

wow isn't it rhythmic ohyeahhhh

Dear 2013

Stay with me while I cry

Touch me when I fell

Lift me up with a hand.

Ok

Payday was niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

I love you money.

Bye

Nak jumpa Tapah D:

May Allah bless me.

ah.

see you, maybe this Jan.

or Feb.

we will.

put your faith in me.

we're in this together.

ah.

die.

The Perks of Being A Wallflower

Movies with ladies. 

Destroy what destroys you.

Hey guys :)

2012 gonna end soon enough. So I guess this is a last post for this year, maybe. Life's good as always. 

Surprisingly  I've finished all my homework in just like 3 days. Wow I am really proud of myself. My biology reference book is gone, how should I know where it goes. I think I left it accidentally at asrama. Yeah sadly, I left my sport shoes and Bodyglove shoes there too! Now I hate myself.

I've stopped working at Borders since 18th Dec. A great experience of course. I have a family there,  I miss them like hell. I love them too much now.

Literally I'm broke. Just spent RM300 (my PMR reward) on school stuffs. Naaaaah joking, not really. Mini watch RM60. Owl shirt RM25. Tudung sekolah RM15 & RM18. Baju kurung RM39 & RM55. Vinnci shoes RM39. School files and pens RM31. And the rest of it, Cha-time. Yeahman

Remember my biggest plan? Polaroid plan. Yeah plan changed. My mom asked me to buy a digital camera instead of polaroid once I got my salary. Yes, mom it's a good idea. Really 

I think I'm gonna get ear cancer, serious shit. I had this earphone stuck in my ears for like a day! haha nice.

I want to go to SESTA, I'm excited. At the same time, can I just die?

My weight is maintained throughout this holidays. But since I quit my job, I think I gained some. Ugh

So this post is literally anything that cross in my mind.

#NP Feel so close

Yet so far.

Ok I love everyone bye.

Dunia tak pernah ramah dgn kita

Hello and good evening to all friends, teachers, time keeper, judges, ladies and gentlemen.

I am here today, being lazy enough to no even look at my bags, wandering what's inside. Duh, homeworks are inside my bags duh. Because I know, ladies and gentlemen, once I open the bags, I'll feel guilty, and I will do them, which was not my number 1 plan.

Actually ladies, I am afraid that I dont even have time to do them. Time is running so fast I cant chase them. But it's okay, life is bettter that way muhaha

I had my day off today. I should've work today (overtime) but I need to rest somehow lol. Working is one of the right choices I've ever made (haha), but pay day was awful (serious) -,-

Yesterday I had my break with two grown ups, it feels weird actually. Haha like for real, they dont talk like us. They talk like grown ups, ah I'm going to be 17, I should've stop kiddie stuffs, gossips and everything.

Hypothesis: The more I live, the more kind of people I meet. Nais ;)

Anyway when I was tidy up children section (which was hell) I found this book. It's really touching. If I have money, I swear I buy 'em. And give it to someone who worth it. Really worth it. Oh a grown up man liked it too ngeh ngeh.

What to buy list once I get the moneyhh:

1 full clothing head to toe (even socks!, you got to wear socks to school, aite?)

2 books (lots of good books I've found) OMG I will buy BORDERS

3 family treat

By the way

I've stop eating maggie for like 4 months now heheh

Saje bagi tahu

Ok bye I love you :)

Hari ni istimewa sbb hari ni cuti

Assalamualaikum
 :)

So far bekerja di Borders. Tak lah penat mana. What! Who am I kidding? Penat wehh kaki asyik berjalan berdiri je. Duduk pun hanya sekali sekala.

The best experience here is that I get to see many kind of people. Most of them are pretty and handsome and nais. Heheh

Cheese tart at the Bees Bakery will be my one and only lunch next time!

Anyway I already browse some book that I'll buy once I get my moneyh.

And I already look through some of the blouses that I'll grab later.

It is such a good feeling.

Just need to work out more with my rakan sekerja though ^^

Have a nice day, sir.

Counting

It's 11:11

Make a wish

The first try was a shame. He told us that there were MANY vacancies. I was about to jump when he says, 

-How old are you guys?

-Um 16?

-Hm let me see ...

-U got a problem with that? Coz we dont

-Yeah, we only hired 17 and above. Sorrayh

-Yeah, now we are embarrassed. Now lets get out of here

Second pit stop? We see a bookstore. Yeah lets hit there

-Hm akak ada kerja kosong tak? *blink*

-Ada! Banyak sangat. Adik pegi kaunter ...

We were taken to a room. It felt strange. And adult. Yeah, that was my feelings. Then we talked about moneyhh. Lots lots lots of moneyhhh. Yup, deal.

I was hoping I can elaborate this FIRST TIME story better. but I cant. I got to online Tumblr (haha) and tidy up my things from asrama, yup gang, didnt unpack yet.

Hey guys, welcome to Borders!

Wait a minute guys, do you hear that?

*kching $$ kching*

and I hope to die

Morning the angels of the Earth! Whoops it's 4 o'clock in the evening already...  Had a really nice sleep last night after reading House Rules! Tak habis baca lagi, but gotta finish it by tonight. Because tomorrow gotta get my business done. Yup, find job since I'm jobless and I'm moneyless and since it's one of my goal for this year end free time. Not gonna sit home just growing fat. Na ah. Nevertheless, I'm not gonna study as I'm supposed to do since SPM is just around the corner, in fact, I only have two weeks. 

sorry mom, for that ^

Anyway, I'd like to congratulate myself for being such a brilliant kid that I managed to get into 5 Bougainvillea (dem I had to Google that spelling). Thanked me for my braveness to study at 3 am in the morning to achieved 6 A's and yup, 1 D. I blame myself for that D. Actually I blame myself for evrything. Studied at eleventh hour. And yet time waits for no man. I decided to NOT study some of the Addmaths killer chapter. Yup they ate me, fiercely. Dont judge me but, I thinks those Addmaths quetions were easy. It were all basic chapter questions. But since I DID NOT study, yup cry baby cry.

Friends as always, adorable. Some of them have been there with me and tried their best to get me to the top. Some of them just simply, trying hard to get me down. And yes, I did fell. HARD

What I learned through this whole big fat cute year 2012 is that;

1. You need to study, earlier

2. Respect others. Seriously. And what I learned here in SESTA is that, NO ONE respected me :)

3. Trust no one. Seriously, not even your flawless so-called-bestfriend. Dont. Just dont trust them. Everybody talks. And they talk way too much.

4. Never ever slap a friend on her face, or you just might lose your bestfriend.

5. Dont give much of your love, they might kill you behind your back.

6. Dont be a victim of bullying. Fight for yourself

7. One who gossip with you, will talk about you, endlessly.

8. Some jokes are not jokes.

Many of my friends decided to move out next year. Cant handle situations, they said. I gave up sometimes, cried in the showers, cried myself to sleep, but I dont know how, dont have the simplest idea of why I managed to put myself together, move on and get ready for another shit to fall from the sky. I wonder where I got the spirit to STAY at school. Frankly, SESTA is cool. I dont understand why people says it's boring. 

One morning I was sitting alone in a room, reading an English novel, a friend came up to me

-Kenapa suka duduk sorang sorang?

-Entah, rasa bebas.

I answered simply and truthfully.

Anyway I have #1 World Problemo ie.

SIJIL PELAJARAN MALAYSIA

Are you ready guys? Full frontal study? #SPM2013 Come at me bro.

Thanks for all the bittersweet memories tough friends!

I honestly love each of you guys :) gpoy

Long day

I dont know whether it just me or my blog just deleted all those pictures that I posted. 

And it drives me crazy --'

Dengar cerita malam ni tengok wayang. Taken 2 with familia. Yup, the first Taken is family's favourite. Have been such a long time since the last movie I watched in cinema O.O

Final exam was tough, really. Sebab study last minute har har har

Lack of time to write results in lack of ideas to write.

Bye

Biolody mode: let's get serious

Okay this one quick post. I'm gonna do Biology's slide for presentation @school. Ah boring...

Hey, guess what? I bought my new best friend!

*drums*

mp3 sony!

Bye!

and it is turquoise!

Ruuuuuuuun for my life!

It was Friday the 14th. Ahh missed! It should have been the 13th, then it should be the most mysterious day ever. but it's okay. who cares really. Muhaha lemme tell you a little story...

*drums*

One lonely night, approximately at 1145pm, three wasted youngster was out of the club desperately trying to figure out the way back home. they were awfully drunk. one of them, Zenon, who was wearing purple striped long sleeve shirt was dropped off by the group near a bus stop. she can do it herself, she said- after throwing shitloads of leftovers in her small stomach ofcourse. the second mate, Neza was dropped off near a crowded stall, wishing there were no strangers slash thieves slash rapist slash dogs slash anything scarier than her mom and daddy. 

The third girlfriend was alone. her way home was a long journey. can she make it? reach home safe and soundly? 

i ask you. can she?

she doesnt care. that night needs to end. FAST

she entered her neighbourhood. there was a block of empty dark houses. real dark. she ran as she heard weird voices that came from the house. she ran. FAST. never turning back. suddenly she fell down to the ground. FASTly she swept off  the dirt on her clothing. she did the right thing. no matter what happens, dont look back, you nevrr know who might be behind you.

there might be ME behind you, right now ...

(but really- jalan kaki from mcd to haus, ambik masa like 10 minutes, reached home 12am. what u expect, nobody was awake, except for Katy Perry, she's Wide Awake)

okay enough with boring introduction. im lack of creativities since im half dead tired now.

never had sleep ever since i rode the bus to KL Sentral

okay im missing my bed now

wait for me, bed. wait for me passionately, can you do that, hunneyh? x

Arrived at KLS at about 2am Saturday. Joke, 1655 on Friday. Went straight to the public phone, called mama. Informed her that daddy's little girl going home. but before that, gotta get some dunkin donuts. Hm choc, blueberry and raspberry for the effin win!

okay TINGE you got the credit too, for making me undehydrated

cant wait for tmr 11am. gonna go to library insyaAllah, got to do zillions of homeworks. uhhh if i was a mastermind...

anyway, went to mcd. Sundae strawberry plus cornflakes was a perfect combination. i'm already full. but that spicy little red chickens keeps calling me, "come here baby". So i grab some. to fulfill my cravings list. oh yeah, next craving list; PIZZA SUBWAY MINERALWATERWHATHE

songs! gotta downloads a zillion of songs, one of them, the best of all time, Malay song, sang by two Malay man, my two and double, x lain dan x bukaaaaaan *drums* Malique ft Black - Teman Pengganti ~

by the way it was real good time with girlfriends <3

okay now im tired

100% x bermaya

enjoy long night, peeps.

Current Addiction

Almost Lover - A Fine Frenzy

Atomic Tom - Take Me Out (iphone video version)

Rizzle Kicks - Get Down  With The Trumpets

Dark Side - Kelly Clarkson

Ellie Goulding -Lights

Grouplove -Tonguetied

Hey

Esok dah nak balik SM Sains Tapah

Hm don't have the happy spirit to go there since I had this fine life alone at home

But I guess some things can't be change.

Got to accept it.

Have to.

Gotta find job

1. Aircraft maintenance

2. Dentist

3. Lawyer

4. Someone in film industry

5. Someone in a band

6. Owner of a vintage cafeteria with an acoustic stage with a bar

7. Owner of a vintage fashion shop

Gotta find happiness

1. Polaroid 

Unfortunately I'm lacking of ideas of writings

So long, partner.

Anyway, to make myself feeling a lots better, here

Nampak x?

Selamat Hari Raya 

Maaf Zahir & Batin

My diamonds are forever

Ohi o/

It's good to be back

Semalam sampai KL Sentral, hantar Ain to her big brother

Went to Maybank bla3

Wow it's real hard to bukak puasa when a really handsome guy was there infront of me,

eating ofcourse

I just did the most charming thing ever!

Lol I gave a little girl a piece of French fries

She liked it ofcourse

Ohhh there was a book sale right infront of mcd

I chose not to enter the sale area

But I cant resist my love book-waste money feeling

With that yellow board saying RM5 for magazines, RM10 for pretty short novel, RM15 for tough ones

Ahhhhh

I entered it

First book that caught my intention, "My sister, the superb-"

I looked around

I think that is the only teen novel

I looked around, again

Yeahhhhh I took the b- book

Okay, RM10 done

Bought dunkin donuts anyway

Delicious

Finally home

Boring tv boring movies

Online till sleep do us apart

Good day tough